Two days ago, that was 16 Dec, 2010 I broke up with him. It is a sudden break up to him, though our problem has been dragging for ever since we started until now, which is 3 years. We were not suppose to be together. Our age gap, background, value, believes all are facing opposite direction. We do not have any common goals, common dream, common interest, and we can still last for 3 years. I truely believe that I really loved him, if not, I will not make it last for so long. Every time he make any mistake, I forgive him, any dissapointment he gave to me, I forgive him, I give in everything I can give in, to let him be happy.... but..... did he really appreciate me? Did he really treat me as his love one? Did he ever seat down and think, what I really need and wanted? I am so tired of being the Mother Teressa of him, every mercy, ever generous, and ever loving to him. I am not perfect, I am not his "mother", I am no one, I get nothing by doing all things I do. Why I do the things for him is because I love him, I love doing things for him, all I want from him is what? Did I ever say I wanted to leave him because he has got nothing? Did I say I wanted to leave him because he did not take time to talk to me for what we suppose to communicate? Yes. He did not give me any "time". He has his world, we do not live in the same world. I feel so lonely being with him. I am so tired. So so so tired...............
I wish it was a dream. I can wake up now, I totally out of his life, and he is totally out of mine now. End everything on 16th December 2010.
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