One New Saturday

This is one of my jobless Saturday. One worry-free, relax, free and easy Saturday morning. I've been sick for almost 3~4 weeks and slowing getting to recover now. I' writing this, and playing Canon in D at the same time, such a wonderful and touching piece and peace of music. I wonder why those great artist from hundred years ago can create such great great music, I don't know any particular famous one other than Ludwig van Beethoven though.

I'm thinking and doing what I like to do and be myself from now onwards. I didn't realise for my 33 years, I have spent my life, somehow or rather, trying to conform, or copy what other people is doing. Like everyone is getting a Degree, and I also must go and study Degree, everyone is getting married, and have children, I must also find a partner and settle down. Though this is what my original dream, but somehow, things and reality changed, and I'll have to adapt and change to a new role or new me. Though it seems weird to others why am I not getting married and setting up a family at this age? Is this what all our final dream is? I really don't know, I believe different people will have different dream. God created us differently, each and everyone shaped, faces, personality, talent, all different, I want to find out my purpose of life from God.

I always believe myself as someone who like languages, someone who like to play around with words, but I just did not study a very high in any language, somehow I feel that, writing will help to express my feeling, and also improve my knowledge. I dream, but not too bold enough to dream to be writer, as I do not have the right asset yet. Somehow, my first target will be reading this book "eat pray love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. I like her character a lot, cause she remind me a lot of things, some similiar encounter, but one thing different is, she can travel and do not have to worry of finance cause she's a writer, how I wish I can travel and write and also earn my living at the same time! That will be a perfect happy life for me~~!!